Gather round kids because I have a great fucking story to tell this Saturday morning
So I broke up with a guy I really really liked after dating him for three months because he would always say he was “too busy” to hang out (he works from home)
We met on okcupid where his profile literally says “not looking for casual hookups, just short or long term dating”
So we would hang out and he would tell me how wonderful he thinks I am and buy me drinks and just wax the fuck ON about what a goddamn catch I am
Except we would only see each other every 2-3 weeks and he would always make sure to kick my ass out in the morning
Recently I informed him that I would be going away for three weeks, could we hang out before then? Nope, too busy. I guess we were supposed to see each other in a month and a half (there were still two weeks before I left at this point, and we hadn’t seen each other in over a week)
So I’m going through my old okcupid messages and what do I find? He has REACTIVATED his profile, and was on it that fucking morning.
So I broke up with him and I’m gonna be honest here, I’ve been really fucking sad about it. Really sad. I’ve never liked anyone this much before or had to break up with someone. It’s a big deal for me.
Because of that, I was pretty happy when I noticed he messaged me on okcupid this morning. At 4 am. Because I thought MAYBE he’s drunk and sad and misses me.
He was just messaging me. Apologizing. Because apparently, he messaged my best friend on OKC and forgot it was her because he was drunk when they met. And that the only reason he was messaging another 19 year old (he’s 33) was because I was “so awesome”.
And now I just want to break everything.
this guy i’m friends with asked me to go with him to see a play that he got free tickets for and the problem is like he’s really nice and sometimes I think he’s flirting with me but he’s so strange that I have no idea and I don’t want to lead him on because I feel like i already have kind of without realizing it
I don’t know what to do about it, it would be fun but I don’t want to go and be like yay fun friend things and then realize he thought it was a date or something i don’t knoW
today was nice because i realized how long it’s been since someone has actually just listened to me and understood what I was saying
when I started almost blubbering about my dad to sarah polley all my film school acquaintances kinda backed away and looked at me funny and now I realize I just revealed some very personal information to a bunch of people I don’t know that well but have to see and work with which isn’t very fun
today I met Sarah Polley and she pulled me aside and let me talk about my family because I got choked up and she just
listened and it was a really incredible moment because I related so much to her documentary and she’s someone who’s really living the life I want to lead and yeah what a great thing
I’m miserable but I’ll probably get to meet Sarah Polley tomorrow so I guess I should chin up